I want to serve You better

Forgive me Lord !!! is the only thing in my mind now.. I went to GB meeting just now and I realized that I did nothing this year... Wat a wasted year.. OMG!!! wat have I done... Father..pls forgive me.. help me to serve u better in the coming years.. give me new ideas, grant me wisdom to teach them, help me to love them even more.. Father, give me a thirsty heart that always long for your words.. help me to read the bible daily and pray daily.. help me to grow spiritually and to become more and more like You.. help me o Lord.

I am married

16.10.2010
I missed out many pages and finally came to this one after getting married for more than 2 months. After all the life's big issue.. house renovation.. moving in... getting married.. and honeymoon.. I finally came to the stage where I can really settled down and go through a normal life.. for the past 6 months.. I hardly had a good day.. worried these and that.. this done and whats next ? and what nexts again? GOSH !! thanks God that it's once in a lifetime.. but after all, I thanks God for being with me all these while... he guided me and eventhough there were many unexpected circumstances but we were able to go through it well..
I also give thanks to God to all my friends and loved ones for the sacrifices in terms of their precious times, efforts, ideas, monies and etc for my wedding.. all these I will never forget and it makes me understand how important FRIENDS are...
but most importantly, I thanks God for my hubby.. he is such a great man. .with patience and love for me that no matter how worst I treated him.. he still treat me like we first met.. This is the most valuable gift that God has given to me.. and he loves me with all his heart..just like christ love the church and willing to sacifice His own body for it.. We enountered lots of problems in the whole process of our wedding and also in our new home renovation and yet he never lose his temper and patience. I thanks God for Him.
I thanks God also that we managed to go through this financial crisis of our life under His almighty hands... he supplied when we need and sometimes even we didnt ask.. yet he also provides to our needs.. He is such a great God...
My wedding eventhough for me is not a perfect one.. but it's the most sweetiest one and there's nothing much I could ask for. Seems like I cant finished praising God.. but thats wat touches my heart.. I wish that I will grow up spiritually and continue to serve Him faithfully and whole-heartedly in any forms of services to Him. Amen......

Christmas is a time to love

16 Dec 2009, 12 pm

Christmas is coming, my diary was fully marked with church activities almost every night.. eventhough it's the bussiest month but for me it's the best time of the year..
This Christmas I was scratching my head thinking of Christmas gifts for my loved ones but I really cant think of any special gift that I wish for myself but I only wish tat more and more ppl will hear the good news of Christ and more lives will be save especially those most dear to me.. all the BB and GB boys and Girls who will soon leave SDK ... pray that salvation will come to them

Poor Little Doggie at the Roadside

12 Oct 2009, 10:11 am

On my way to work today I saw a poor little doggie at the roadside somewhere along Jalan Lintas Sibuga Highway.. At first I thought it was a sheep... a dirty sheep but as I drove further only then I realized it was a dog.. a long-hairy dog. This little dog was so dirty, mud covered all the body and head. It seems like for years this poor little thing didnt receive any proper treatment or even shower.. wat a cruel owner !!! this poor little thing wouldnt be in such a way if the owner takes good care of him/her. He/ She seems looking around for food or perhaps looking for help.. wish that someone would come and save him/her.

I continued to drive but my mind couldnt stop thinking about this poor little doggie as I drive to office.. So I took a U turn and think of doing something...... I drove slowly along the highway..and I saw this poor doggie again at the roadside..this time he/she lifted up its head and stared at me as my car passed through him/her slowly.. I felt so pity for this poor thing. I looked closer..all the hair were half long and badly knitted as never been trimmed or cut, the skin was not infected but only bold at certain part of the skin. I could see this poor thing is not a sick dog and it's still healthy.. I wish I could do something to him/her but I was so helpless. I couldnt do anything..If I got a cage or driving a double cab.. I will take him/her away. I believe this ugly thing will look as pretty as other pure breed doggie if it received proper treatment. I wondered wat a cruel thing the owner had done to this doggie. His/ Her owner was such an idiot and unresponsible person!!! Really bad and useles owner !! and if I saw this poor little thing again for the third time.. I will do something ....

Paddle or Die

14 Sept 2009, 12:51pm

Back to 30 Aug 2009
Forward !!! Forward !! was the only words I remembered.. I was looking forward and was so excited abt this adventure trip but it ended up nearly cost my life. Thanks God that my whole team was safe and none of us injured or hurt. The moments my boat overturned at Cobra rapid.. I experienced the fear of being drowned and the first thing tat came to my mind was... I afraid of losing my loved ones..of course CK Man was the first person I think of... I never thought that the waves were so strong and huge and it frigtened me ..eventhough I could swim but I felt helpless and couldnt do anything and just let the waves carried me all the way through the rapid until the water was steady and still. The kayak came to a rescue and placed me on the river side where he turned to others for rescue..after I got back my breath...I kept looking around for my team and saw none of them..I was very worrying at that time and pray that God will gather them safety... abt a few seconds I saw my boat coming near me carrying CK Man, Kevin, Ken and his wife.. I jumped into the boat and then saw Andrew and Yung on other team boat... I really thanks God that all of us were safe...

The journey continued a few minutes later and we were told to paddle more and more especially in the rapids if not our boat will be overturned by the strong waves...tat was the most challenging moments in my life where I recall the motto for this adventure activity is ' Paddle or Die'. From that moment, I paddled as hard as I could and we were able to finish the battle without the second overturn.. after all, in was fun, though but as I recalled back those moments when our boat overturned ..we were indeed in a very dangerous situation. We could have drowned or even hit to the rock and injured ourselves... Only now I understand why my mom never allow us to go for rafting. I also encourage those who can't swim will never ever try this activity as it will cost your life...

Peaceful August

29/08/2009, 9:38am

Seems like the month of August was a peaceful and quiet month for me as I found myself didnt update my blog at all... good things also meaning tat I have less thing to worry and concern abt ..

Well, I'll be leaving to KK for a break in the afternoon after waited for so long.. and this time a part from going shopping, I'll be going to have so much of fun under the sun in Pulau Sapi and water rafting at Padas River.. I should be happy about this but things turned out the other way round.. my mom warned me many times since I told her I'll be going to KK for holiday..She also kept reminding me especially this morning not to swim or near the water where I'm going to do both.. I feel bad abt this but I hope my mom will understand tat I'm not doing anything harmful to myself.. I have longed to go rafting since long time ago and it will be a part of my life achievement to experience that.. If I listened to my mom all these while..not doing this and that..until now I will not had gone through all the fun tat I've had.. I hope my mom will understand me and the reason I'm not letting her know is to avoid her from worrying too much..

God Answers Prayer

15 July 2009, 9:54 am

The Youth Fellowship Election cum AGM was conducted smoothly. God indeed is a God who listen to my cry. He understands my needs and he knows exactly where to place us in order to serve Him better. I thanks God for answering my prayer. Last week I was so upset and blamed God for many things... for giving me so much of burden until I have no time for myself.. I pray that God will forgive me for all my sinful thoughts.. but now I can feel His presence with me for He shows His mercy and compassion to me in this election.. He has reasons for everything and everyone and he knows exactly where to place us. I really thanks God for this election which had been conducted so smoothly and for all the brothers and sisters that work so well for this fellowship. I believe what we've done, the time and effort that we've sacrificed for this ministry will bring glory to His name and in return He will shower us with His blessing bountifully. Praise God for everything.

I also thanks God for the election of Young Leader Council on Sunday. Me and captain were having a hard time in choosing the right person to be the president next year. We also worry that the person that we are going to choose might not be the one that the girls agree or respect. But after so much of discussions and studies we decided to let the girls choose among themselves instead of we appoint the president and God once again shows himself that He is a faithful and true God and a God who listen to those who pray in the name of Jesus. The president that was elected was the one that we has in mind from the very beginning. thanks God .. After all these, I've learned a lesson again which is ..we need not worry so much for God will be in our midst in everything that we asked and prayed in His Name. He is not deaf nor sleep..he listens and understands.. I also believe that he will shows us much more things in the years to come for the BB and GB. I hope that this important ministry in our church will continue to grow and shine as light to all the young people in the school that more souls will be save and bring glory to His name.